It can only be what it is...

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Sunday Afternoon

Mosquitoes biting,
Squirrels around the tree branch,
Grass finally cut

Friday, May 21, 2010

Patience, do you have it ?

OK , not a particularly interesting post today. The theme seems to be patience. Patience at work, at home, never ending patience.
I am trying to not lose my cool, and the medium for not losing my cool is trying to imagine what a Buddha or a Zen master would do in that given situation.
It seems to help a little, at least enough to keep me thinking critically and not emotionally.
It is funny how we fall into the trap of treating the ones that we hold closest the worst and complete strangers better.
I realize that a large part of that is we expect forgiveness from family , and some how that excuses the behavior.
At least today I can look myself in the eye and say ''I kept my patience''

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Number 9-Happy Mother's Day!

No, not the song from John Lennon, but post number 9. Today is Mother's Day, Happy Mother's Day to all the Moms and Dad's that do double duty as well.
Raising children is really quite the task.
I remember years ago someone asking me just shortly after my first was born, ''How do you know when you're ready to have children ?''
My reply was you never are, children present themselves and you do the best you can.
Looking back, my statement rings true.
I wonder as souls do we pick an environment given the choice , to continue work we have not finished or to help our perspective parents work out their issues.
Either way our collective karma brought us together and getting along sometimes is harder than it needs to be, but it is part of the journey and perhaps just perhaps , I am starting to get that.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Post # 8

OK , post number 8 and aside from myself no one is reading this methinks. Of course, I haven't promoted or even emailed anyone to say that I am writing online. I guess part of me figured that the magic of the Internet would prevail and that my ego would be satisfied that on some level I managed to communicate with someone other than my self.
Funny how my main goal was to just write and see what becomes of it, and yet I still retained a feeling or aspiration that someone else would read what I've written and agree or disagree.

All that being said, having grown up in Lasalle, QC I am stunned to find out that there was / is a Tibetan Buddhist temple in Verdun. Never did I know ,or even see it. Although looking at Google maps I am convinced I must have driven by it before.

I am going to inquire about visiting it, and maybe attending a meditation session or two. Up until this point I have pretty much been going it alone and I am curious what it would be like in a formal setting.
I have a question though, Buddhism for the most part sees God as impersonal if you will, not so much a person but as all pervasive , a source , etc., and yet he was present, in human form and is worshipped with puja ceremonies, and his pastimes are recounted and prayers are offered and there are innumerable reincarnations. Is this incongruous ? I think I am missing something.
That's it for this post.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Twofold question

OK , here is the deal that is preoccupying my mind. Attachments-try as I might I am finding it extremely difficult to separate my feelings (anger , frustration) those type of feelings from when my wife and daughter are sad, angry or just irritated.... I end up being pulled into their vortex of misery and rather than making things better, I just end up as miserable as they are.

How to separate attachment to being angry , sad frustrated etc., while at the same time not detaching from the people that I love, or even humankind.

It's simple to cut and burn-but not really very realistic. The balance is the key, but how to regain my footing once the teeter-toter of emotions takes over and bring it back in line.

Not so much of a two-fold question after all , in so much as it seems to be my constant state of juggling that I need to acheive this time around.