It can only be what it is...

Monday, August 30, 2010

What I need to do

As I sit here contemplating yesterday and this morning's actions I want to say I am disappointed with myself. I was in a headlong confrontational situation and started out with keeping my cool, but at some point the button was kicked on and I started to lose it.
I can't figure out what makes me more angry, the fact that I am being disregarded or disrespected or both.
I know, I know my generation ( or least me) would not even dared to talk to my parents in this way but somehow she feels she can. Is that a sign that she is so comfortable with us or is it just plain simply lack of respect. I can't tell.
What I can say is that it makes my blood boil, especially when it is directed at someone else, I feel compelled to jump in and control the situation.
Not only does that make things worse, it paints me as the uncontrollable one, even if a minute before it's not me that's losing it, I need it to stop .
It's sooo not worth it .

Friday, August 27, 2010

Tao te Ching Chapter 2

When people see some things as beautiful,
other things become ugly.
When people see some things as good,
other things become bad.
Being and non-being create each other.
Difficult and easy support each other.
Long and short define each other.
High and low depend on each other.
Before and after follow each other.
Therefore the Master
acts without doing anything
and teaches without saying anything.
Things arise and he lets them come;
things disappear and he lets them go.
He has but doesn’t possess,
acts but doesn’t expect.
When his work is done, he forgets it.
That is why it lasts forever.

Anger, patience, trying times

You ever notice how things come in threes, anger , patience , trying times. Bad luck , sometimes I think if I didn't have bad luck I'd have no luck.
Is it a self fulfilling prophecy ?
There are days where I think so.
I am starting a daily affirmation. Not so much like the Jack Handy of SNL fame ( ''Gosh darn it , people like me!'') but more like just starting the day positively with an approach of gratitude for whatever comes my way.
If it is positive, all good, if negative, all good.
They say ( whomever they are) that it takes 21 days to break a habit. Well, it's on, check back regularly for my progress reports .

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Another Day,

Another day, another exercise in patience.
I can say today that I kinda flunked my own test of patience, I did recover and the day got better however.
Not a giant a-ha moment or anything, just back-sliding.
At least I feel that I have moved forward from where I slid.

Monday, August 23, 2010


What time is it now?
The time is now, always is
Where to be ? Right now !

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Out of our control...

Visited an exhibition of the Rapa Nui, inhabitants of Easter Island today. It was a very interesting take on their culture as the reality of shipping giant statues (weighing 27 tonnes on average) all the way to North America would be a logistical nightmare, and the descendants who still live there refused as well. So the exhibit took a different tone, focused more on their life, achievements and way of thinking.
At one point there was a statement that the Rapa Nui accepted that everything that happened, was out of their control.
I have to agree and yet have to say that it must have been an interesting civilization if that was truly the case.
Like Genkaku posted today about barking dogs (see here we all have our reticence to allowing the world unfurl around us and fight it tooth and nail at times. Some more than others,

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

How we see ourselves,

You know, sometimes the smallest things , or big things unexpectedly provide insight into the workings and or illusion of everything.
My daughter and I recently had a little blow-out. Not the first time , and realistically probably not the last either, but what that provided for me anyway, was a window into the misconception of who we think we are.
She had her view and wasn't budging and after a day and a half of stewing (both her and I ) did we come to realize what we really ended up arguing about.
The important thing was that we both ended up realizing our misconceptions.
Sometimes I think we just have to listen and live and observe, Zen and Right Way do present themselves in every day situations,
Hence Everyday Zen I guess,

Monday, August 9, 2010

The Zen Path by Robert Aitken Roshi

Came across this today and could not help but feel the honesty dripping off the page.

''On the Zen path , we seek for ourselves the experience of Shakyamuni. However, we do not owe fundamental allegiance to him, but to ourselves and to our environment. If it could be shown that Shakyamuni never lived, the myth of his life would be our guide. in fact it is better to acknowledge at the outset that myths and religious archetypes guide us, just as they do every religious person. The myth of the Buddha is my own myth.
Thus it is essential at the beginning of practice to acknowledge that the path is personal and intimate. It is no good to examine it from a distance as if it were someone else's. You must walk it for yourself. In this spirit, you invest yourself in your practice, confident of your heritage, and train earnestly side by side with your sisters and brothers. It is this engagement that brings peace and realization.''

From Taking the Path of Zen, by Robert Aitken.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Teachers, and the passing of Aitken Roshi

With the passing of Aitken Roshi, it has made me wonder about the choices we make for a teacher. I have never met, or read any of his books yet, although I was making my way towards them.
Can one have a teacher that we have never met ?
In the Vedic tradition you have a guru, and within those circles there is some debate as to whether you can choose a guru that has deceased.
What do you do if your teacher has fallen ? Can you replace them ? Should we ?
If we choose a teacher that has deceased , and choose them as our guide, have we elevated them to a stature that can be without equal ?
As I am preparing to meet several Zen teachers in the next few weeks these are questions that keep ruminating in my mind.
I have to say from all the posts that I have read, Aitken Roshi seems to have lived a good life, in that he did real good with his time , inspired others , and will continue to inspire.