It seems that we all have an issue with just being. Of letting go, and just being. We are brought up to feel that there has to be a point, a goal, something to strive for.
There should be just practice, no goal, no desire and really no searching for satori , kensho or anything else.
As soon as that happens , we take our eye off the ball so to speak and I feel that the game is lost at that point.
Easier said than done, I admit-but that seems to be the point.